I have been involved in magic in many ways. I was once was a charismatic Christian who spoke in tongues, an acupuncturist, and then a homeopath. It took me a while for me to see through my self-deception in these areas, but after I saw my way out of those ways of thinking, I was pretty good at avoiding similar temptations. It is as if I turned off certain self-deception switches. And those switches never work again. I no longer heard god, felt Qi flowing out of me and into others, nor could perform shamanistic homeopathy to amplify the placebo effect.
I use to do some pretty amazing things with acupuncture needles — I need to post more on that. But I doubt I could pull those off any more because I no longer believe.
Us ex-Christian atheist bloggers often have Christians accuse us of rejecting a false Christianity. They claim that their flavor of Christianity is true (or better) than our former sects and that perhaps if we’d had not been exposed to the false teachings of our former Christianity, we may still be Christian. They pity our rejection of Christianity as a whole only because we tasted one or two bad Christianities instead of real Christianity.
Well, they may be right. We may still be Christians only because it would have taken us a little longer to see through their theological knots. But for me, I really think there is no hope now because I have turned of some important God switches. To mention a few, I no longer believe the following:
- god(s) can talk or communicate to us
- miracles happen
- gods or spirits intervene in the world
- believing in gods will add any value to my life
- there are privileged scriptures
- there is any added value in using god-jargon
So no matter how tasty they feel their flavor of Christianity would be for me, the broken switches I mentioned above would probably not go back on. And I am pretty sure that no matter what flavor of Christianity they embrace, one or more of these switches are important for lighting up their religious play arena.
I use to do some amazing things with my Christianity but I doubt I could ever pull off those things again since there is so much I couldn’t possibly believe again with any integrity.
Questions to readers: Have you ever had switches like these turn off in your life?