Christians who don’t know me often accuse me to turning from Christianity to Atheism for answers. They see Atheism as a sad, lonely, mental home — if not peverse, corruptive and dangerous. So for those folks I wrote this:
I turned away from saving people. I turned away expecting prayers that end with “In Jesus’ Name” to receive better treatment than prayers of non-believers. I turned away from a smug salvation. I turned away from expecting to be able to do magic by getting god to break the rules of nature.
Instead, I turned to loving on equal terms. I turned to understanding the world, to understanding my common nature with other animals. I began to revel in ordinariness. I expected no magic, I developed patience. I turned to genuine love — not love expecting eternal salvation and comfort in this life.
I didn’t “turn to atheism”, I just happen to be an atheist because I don’t believe in the gods and spooks you declare are necessary to believe in so as to live forever.
I believe in lots of things, just not your magic, self-centered world. For that you call me an “Atheist” — fine, if that works for you. But “Atheism” is not a sad home for me, it is an epiphenomenon — a consequence of many good changes !
To illustrate my point, the image above may look like just a bunch of weird symbols, but if you see those dark spots as the background, the block-letters of the word “A T H E I S T” will appear. In a similar way, my Atheism only really appeared as a result of other attributes in my life. So, my Atheism is an epiphenomenon. I did not “turn to atheism“. Instead, several other traits slowly crystallized in my life only to eventually yielded the secondary outcome of being an atheist. I am primarily all those other things and only secondarily an atheist. Only because of your dogma, am I known as an “atheist”.
Note: In case you could not see the letters above, I have photo-shopped an image for you to make them clear.