I did not embrace “Atheism” as I embraced “Christianity” when I was younger. Instead, “atheism” is more of an epiphenomena in my life. Christians who don’t know me often accuse me to turning from Christianity to Atheism for answers. They see Atheism as a sad, lonely, mental home — if not peverse, corruptive and dangerous. So for those folks I wrote this:
I turned away from saving people. I turned away expecting prayers that end with “In Jesus’ Name” to receive better treatment than prayers of non-believers. I turned away from a smug salvation. I turned away from expecting to be able to do magic by getting god to break the rules of nature.
Instead, I turned to loving on equal terms. I turned to understanding the world, to understanding my common nature with other animals. I began to revel in ordinariness. I expected no magic, I developed patience. I turned to genuine love — not love expecting eternal salvation and comfort in this life.
I didn’t “turn to atheism”, I just happen to be an atheist because I don’t believe in the gods and spooks you declare are necessary to believe in so as to live forever.
I believe in lots of things, just not your magic, self-centered world. For that you call me an “Atheist” — fine, if that works for you. But “Atheism” is not a sad home for me, it is an epiphenomenon — a consequence of many good changes !
To illustrate my point, the image above may look like just a bunch of weird symbols, but if you see those dark spots as the background, the block-letters of the word “A T H E I S T” will appear. In a similar way, my Atheism only really appeared as a result of other attributes in my life. So, my Atheism is an epiphenomenon. I did not “turn to atheism“. Instead, several other traits slowly crystallized in my life only to eventually yielded the secondary outcome of being an atheist. I am primarily all those other things and only secondarily an atheist. Only because of your dogma, am I known as an “atheist”.
Note: In case you could not see the letters above, I have photo-shopped an image for you to make them clear to you.